Friday, January 27, 2006

The pillars of Love

The pillars of love are: Forgiveness, Sacrifice, and Submission.
Forgiveness is probably the one that we talk most about, but really know very little of the truth of forgiveness. Most of us really can't forgive ourselves, let alone anyone else. We don't realize that nothing that we have done or have been done to us, even this very day matters. We are dead, totally and completely dead. There should be no idea of the previous identity left at all. For what we are is the glory of Jesus, manifest in this earth, or at least that's what we are supposed to be. We honestly have to separate ourselves from the sins that our flesh still lives in. Our souls are now one with God, not our flesh. When we live in the guilt of our flesh, we put our self at the throne of the temple of God. Learning to forgive ourselves and our neighbors is the first key to truly understanding love.
Sacrifice is something that some of us know a lot about, and some of us know little. Sacrifice is not self-serving. So if you do community service, or are involved in any community project, but receive praise or recognition of any kind, if what you do brings you esteem, than you have receive your reward for your work, and in that reward you have not sacrificed. Sacrifice is the giving of yourself, to a point that you are beyond inconvenienced; you are neglecting your own interests.
When we hear summation, the first thing that comes to most of our minds is a good wife. This could possibly be one of the reasons that the feminist movement has been so powerful over the last 100 years. Men, above all else the chief servant in the home needs to be us. We have no right to even think of a woman submitting to us, they will under the example that we set. More than likely any woman that has problems with submission really has a lack of submitted men in her life showing her how to live. Did what I just say strike you with anger? Did you just think in your head that I am a fool? This is due to an idol in your heart. How do I know this? Jesus is our best example. As Jesus submitted himself to the church, so we as men need to submit to our wives, and love them. All sins come through the head, so men, if your wife is a pain, and your children do not listen, you need to look at yourself and figure out how you are failing them, not raise your voice or your hand. I am not saying that we should not bring correction to our homes; I'm stating that this correction must start with us.
If we can come to an understanding of what forgiveness, sacrifice, and submission, we have a chance to one day understand what Love is, and therefore understand who God really is.

Friday, January 06, 2006

It's happening again - deep inside the heart of pain

I don't know where this is coming from, or how to fight it.

I see it here again, in my life. Why is it that I face this once again. I thought it was through, I thought I was clean, complete and whole. Why is it that again, one year later the same feelings start creeping back into my life. I once again feel in love, I once again am helpless against it. I once again have ever sort of vial coming back out of me. Out of my heart spews black tar, the pain and agony of a life destined for hell beacons to me once again. I stand firmer than last year. My faith is built up by firm theology.

But what happens when the theology seems to fade. When you beseech God for the flesh to die, but your will and your flesh are against you. What do you do when you set your mind on the things of God, but your flesh, heart, and will still ache for lawlessness. What do you say to your friends, your peers, those you are to council, those in authority that count on you...what do you say to God...

I'm on my face, in the mud, wanting to turn back, my flesh surges to once again delight in the pleasures that it now trips me on. It beacons, it shakes. I become uncontrollable, the things I want to do, I do not do, the things I do not want, I do...Who will save me from this flesh of death.

At what point is controlling your actions self righteousness, and at what point are you to give up on your flesh, and not feel a burden for the evil actions of it's filth. At what point do you start cutting off body parts to save your soul.

I once again come to the crossroad of having no answers.