Total Reflection

So tonight I found this blog again, which I created about 3 years ago, while I was working at Radio Shack. As humor has it, I am once again working at the Shack, only this time I am a Manager in Training, and will most likely get my own store after the first of the year.

But that's not what I want to talk about. See as I look back on these old blogs, and read the blogs I just copied over from MySpace, I become sad, mostly because of how much I have been lacking in intelligent thought. Nothing is inspiring me. Even in my times of greatest despair, I was able to at least convey the depth of human emotion, and now it's merely dribble, if anything at all. I wonder how much California has changed me, and what I need to do about it.

Maybe I should move to New York, or Boston, and get a completely different atmosphere, or maybe I just need to find a job, that can really be a career.

As I get ready to go home, for a nice little visit, I wonder how things will be, how they will be different and how they will be the same. Have I left them behind or have they left me behind, do I expect the memories to be fresh and alive, or dead and gone. Do I want to say goodbye again, or get ready to move back?

I guess it all depends on what happens. And we will see.

Please feel free to look through all my posts, some of them are very dark. I wish that people would comment, if nothing more than so I know that someone read them. I know they are read, but have no idea by whom. I've logged well over 2100 views on MySpace in the last year, but only can be sure of a few people who read them.

Scientific Personality Test

My score on The LONG Scientific Personality Test:


ENTP - The Inventor
(You scored 63% I to E, 47% N to S, 83% F to T, and 52% J to P!)


The single word that describes your type is "inventor", and you belong to the larger group called rationals. You love to tinker with things and come up with new ideas. You are outgoing and curious with an insatiable appetite for knowledge. You have no real desire to lead, only doing so if there is no other way. 2% of the population share your personality type.
You are a flirtateous and energetic romantic partner, fun and engaging, always looking for something unusual to try. In your enthusiam, you may make promises you can't keep. Your competitive nature and need to be perceived as an expert can be daunting to a romantic partner at times. You so enjoy the tug of a good debate that sometimes you act as if you don't take anything seriously. You are usually very supportive and helpful to your mate, but somewhat scattered and unable to devote your full attention there. You feel most appreciated for your great ideas, unusual perceptiveness, and ability to understand and communicate with people. You feel most appreciated when your partner understands your need for lots of social contact and your need to live life as spontaneously as possible.
Your group summary: rationals (NT)
Your type summary: ENTP