Depression

I just want to say this is not a personal attack against anyone. I am not pointing at you saying there is something wrong with you. I am attacking a position, a way of thinking. Depression is very vague. If it's caused from a personality disorder it can only be suppressed by medication, not cured. If you are taking the medication for more than 3 months, you are relying on mankind instead of God. Post-Baby depression, well that's something women have to go through. Medicating that just keeps you from growing as a person. 200 years ago what would you do? The world what such a horrible place back then wasn't it? Without all our pills to pop. Not surprising there is a direct link between the increase in pill popping and the increase in disorders. As someone who has fought depression both ways I can tell you that the medical way is worthless compared to the God way. Depression is something that comes with certain events. We need to accept the fact that we are going through something. We have to accept the fact that something in our life is causing the depression. We need to look at the fact that we are depressed and see what is causing it; and look past it, see what we need to do to change, or to just walk out of the depression. Your feelings, your emotions, the things that happen to you, everything in your life is yours. You are not a victim, you are a human, created in the likeness of God and you need to snap out of it and live in freedom. Most of the time the bad things that happen to us is our fault. We are reaping what we sowed. If you are a Christian you are forgiven, but that doesn’t make you free from the just reward to your sin. If I murder someone, I can be forgiven by God, but I still have to deal with the earthly penalty for that sin. If I have extra-marital intercourse I too can be forgiven, but the depression, anxiety, lust, anger, hatred, worthlessness and other things that happen from this sin are still all mine to reap. A lot in our Christian society we forget that we reap what we sow; we do not think about the fact that even though we have a spotless lamb already covering our sin, we still have to deal with the death we have sowed into our lifes.

Time to Reconcile

So I have been totally convicted lately. I out of knowledge (some of it false knowledge) have treated people poorly. I have looked down on people, attacked them, slandered them, and treat them poorly.

I have not been acting like I have received forgiveness. I have acted like a well, you understand.

I wish I could have learned all this before, but that's not what happened.

Was I wrong in what I said? For the most part no, I made one mistake and have been working on repairing that issue, but for the most part what I said was correct. What I said was wrong though, the way I acted was wrong, the things I said to people were wrong, I was a jerk. I hurt my brothers and sisters in the kingdom, I didn't help them.

If you are looking at what other people are doing wrong, you are puffed up with knowledge. Love builds other people up. If you are tearing at someone, no matter how "Holy" or "Pious" your intentions are, you are killing a child of the most high.

Sometimes we think that we can change someone. We think that our actions towards someone will help him or her see the light. We think we.... we lift ourselves up.

Lately I end up having random conversations with strangers or near strangers. I've talked to them about things and seen the light come on. I've seen other peoples prayers answered by what I said. Is this happening because I am great? That answer is obviously no. Is this happening because I anything? Well the only thing I can tell you as I talk to people when they want to. God directs them to me; God puts something on my mind. God is in control. I can never come up with anything to help anyone. God does use us to talk to other people. But it's when he wants us to, not when we get the gall up to blast our brother or sister who is probably just as strong in the faith as we are, we just see their faults and not ours. We all have to stop this; we have to stop being judges. We have to stop thinking that we are better than anyone.

Even if we are really truly better than someone have we always been? Were we once worse than we are right now? If we have ever improved why did that happen? The answer to that is God. Only through his loving mercy and kindness are we perfected. If we look down on our fellow man because of something not yet out of their life, what are we saying to God?

I don't have all the answers. All I know is that I need to repent to my fellow man, and mend the divisions that I have caused in my relationships. I can't fix all of them; some people will not speak to me. I wish it was different, but some people want nothing to do with me.

Anyway, if you are one of those people who know me and want to speak again say hi, call me, stop by my house after 4pm and say hi, I really want things to get better.